赵志敬客栈下药小龙女:I can't really remember where when I made transition from being numb to being sad

To tell a truth ,I really can't bear to part from them. I can't really remember where when I made transition from being numb to being sad I eat what I can,I can what I can't I eat what i can what i can't eat i can 什么意思啊 i can't get no satisfaction why i can't follow it I can't anymore!什么意思？ I can't hear anything. I can't type chinese,why?? one thing I can't forgot